Rhyen is riding the bus! Wowser. If you asked me a year ago if Rhyen would be one, in Kindergarten and two, riding the bus, I would have said, "no way." Life has a way of changing our plans...Russell was provided a rental car for the first 6 months he worked here, and we recently had to return it. Rhyen now has to ride the bus (about a 6 min bus ride) to school. She rides with two of the girls on our street. I am so proud of her. She impresses me every day. She is awesome!
Now, let's talk about the initial mother's guilt. Hahaha. I am a stay at home mom. I love it. Part of that has involved taking and picking Rhyen up from school. I genuinely enjoy doing so, and I will miss it. I'll miss kissing her goodbye and watching her walk into her class. I will miss chatting with the other parents and teachers. I find my (what I like to call) ego making stories up about the situation. "I'm not being there for her," "I'll miss out," "She will feel lonely," "It's scary," "I'm not being a good mother." Now I know that many kids ride the bus, I just never thought Rhyen would. But This is what is happening. SO instead of believing these ridiculous guilt tactics, I am going to choose what IS.
For my fabulous five-year-old this is a terrific opportunity to gain independence. An aid will walk Rhyen from class to the bus until she gets the hang of it, but she knows she needs to get to the bus in order get home. I think it will be a growing opportunity for Rhyen to problem solve, as well as a responsibility builder. She is capable. She is smart. The wonderfulness for me; I get to go back to basics. When I have the truck I am constantly running errands. Kapolei is about 20-25 minutes from us and I can spend a whole day cruising from store to store (Target, Costco, Safeway, Ross, Goodwill). I am excited to save some money, hahaha (or maybe I'll just shop online). I am so incredibly excited to get creative, and get moving. Walking to the beach is at the top of the list. My amazing neighbors let me borrow a bike with a baby seat on it. YES! Mobley-man and I will be cruisin'! I am excited for the change. I am excited to in-joy my surroundings. I am excited to cook more. I am excited to clean (a little) more. Back to basics. To live simply. To live well.
I know at some point we will pick up another car. I am looking on craigslist for an inexpensive, reliable car. There are also some guys at Russell's company that may be leaving the island soon and want to sell their vehicles. We are keeping our eyes and ears open for sure. Still focusing on what is; we are grateful for whatever is in store. This, or something better.....
Thank you. And today I challenge us all to put aside whatever stories we make up about a situation, focus on what IS, and find our something wonderful. Good luck!
Aloha nui loa,
Jennifer
Thank you for this post, Jennifer. It is just what I needed. I can totally see how your ego would create those thoughts- I'm registering Beckam for kindergarten and am trying to decide between full/half day. I am leaning towards full day but was feeling like a bad mom- believing thoughts like: who sends their child to full day when it's their LAST year to have them home? etc. Anyway, I need to NOT believe those thoughts and instead be grateful for the independence and growth this will give him. Love you. And miss you. And thank you for your wise insight. Glad you are 'loving what IS'. xoxo
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